The lack of communication

It is so very unfortunate that we live in a world where the communication channels have been broken. People find it difficult to speak honestly with one another because we do not want to offend each other, we do not want to be hated. well that is what i at least hope is the reason, we fight with our words and create anger and animosity. We have become verbs as if we are words whereas we are humans who can use both nice words to one another. I have been trying to find a reason why we do not talk, why my sisters would not sit and have an innocent conversation about life, about our experiences, just a talk. Why every time i speak to  my parents i feel like am close to them but  their actions do not show what i think. why i feel i am never heard and i am always trying to get heard but am forced to listen??????
   

The disaster call life

Today I woke up with the burning sensation to just not live anymore,  why must we suffer for the benefit of others who dont even consider our feelings.  God say have faith and trust that it will get better and your blessings will come not in your time but in His perfect planned time for your life. This statement requires patience that is way above our human mind can comprehend, don't get me wrong I love my Lord but there are days where I feel am not getting to Him.
He could just throw me some material blessings here and there, you like a father should do to a good daughter. Then I realize that am more privileged than so many people I know and those I don't, all I need to do is wait on His word and confess that all is well.
To have thoughts that question your mere existance is the work of the devil, we need to eliminate all the triggers that bring such misery to our souls.
Don't think of people that always bring you down, surround yourself with praise every second, be anxious for nothing, do not fear anything that has no power over your life in a summary live positive.  Cry when you need to but collect your self when you done and remember everyone that live was built for a purpose, find yours and contribute to the beautiful creation.